Wednesday, May 6, 2009

sad

Jinyu is sad...might not be able to join the OIP to wuhan.

I hate my dad!!! just keep quiet about my passport and doing nothing about it!!!!! he sucks!!!!

he always drag me down!!!!! wad the hell lah

u had no one to talk about...the friends i once thought they were...but they were not..t

i want to go, but there is nothing i can do about it.......i dun feel we are a family, i feel like i am so extra. we are just strangers living together, and i have to bear all the crap of my dad. there's no common languuage thinking. nothing at all!!!

he's not happy with me..about everything i do. What the hell````````if only i can just leave alone...

i am cluess about mu future, why must i put up with all those things...if only i have the ability to support myself, i dun want the feeling of...leeching him, hence keep quiet about everything.

if only if.......i dun like him...the house...everything...cant i have a family tt cares for each other, even if there's no communication, i dun want to live with people who have no feelings for each other, no love nothing at all. Who and what am i to them? someone to support them when they grew old? someone to yell at? someone to belong to them? someone to let them know they are not alone?

how to escape from this whole bloody crap life!

i dun understand them, but i will try to be happy. Wads the big deal of living alone!

My teacher just called me to tell me that if i can provide them with the document , photocopy of my passport, i request for the wuhan thingy will be rejected. i really dun understand my dad, how can he be so selfish..withoug sparing a thought for me at all! just keep quiet about my passport for two bloody whole years. maybe i need to thank him, because of his selfish, i learn to take care of myself through out the years!

what the helll....

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